Becstar

This is my special secret
That i pray you never read
It tells of love and heartache
Of which you are the seed.
You were given to me by friends
It was just long distance fun
We wrote and spoke for months on end
So similar in our ways we semed as one.
Everytime i heard from you
A peice of you planted in my heart
It spread it's roots deep and wide
Until, of my soul, you were a part.
The pounding of my heart pains my chest
When you write or when you call
So you can only guess the agony i'm in
When there's no word from you at all.
And now, i feel insignificant
In your life i feel left out
There doesn't seem to be a place for me
And your silence fuels my doubts.
I don't know what you're thinking
And i don't know where i stand
Am i a fickle piece of present fun?
Or am i in your future plans?
Thoughts of you, only torture me
So strong is my need for you
And it breaks my heart to think
That you don't need me like that too
Thus, this is my little secret
That i pray you never read
It tells of my heartache
And the love you're blind to see.