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1. My Baby Ode
Today I have lost my glow,
It's not often I feel so low.
My sister-in-law has had the bub
Although I'm happy for her....
I do feel sad.
As my body clock,
Still goes tick tock.
I was forced to decide long ago,
That children for me were a no go.
Because of my disability,
I don't have the physical ability.
The pins and plates entwined in my hips,
Would make it difficult and cause me risk.
My partner and I...
Decided long ago.
That children where for us a no go.
The circumstances ar all wrong,
And in my heart there is no song.
The decision was made for me,
When I was born into this world of thee.
But when a baby is born into our family,
The sadness comes racing back to me at an almighty rate,
There's nothing I can physically do to change our fate.
Not at the present but maybe in the future.
A change of fate will become a possibility.
We may decide adoption is for us,
Hopefully without a fuss.

2. DEDICATION TO MY POP LESLIE GEORGE SHARMAN 17 MAY 1921 - 15 JANUARY 1999
Pop I don't know....
Just how to come to terms with this,
As you were there for me,
When I needed you.

I admire nan....
As she is so strong.
I just wish that I could be like that.
Did you know at christmas......
That you didn't have much time left?

Pop,
I wish that I could have.....
Done for you.....
What you did for me,
Such a long time ago.
When I was in hospital.

At your funeral....
The told me not to cry...
For nan's sake,
But,
I just couldn't help it.

The night after you....
Passed away,
I sat outside most of the night
Just looking up at the sky,
And talking to you.
Remembering things that....
Happened long ago
And thinking of the days.....
When I was little and in hospital.
You and Nan were there nearly every day.

Remember when....
I was in hospital and you brought me.....
Chinese food?
Those were the best times.

A couple of day ago Pop,
Nan said that this has....
Changed Nathan and opened him up
Which may be true but....
For me....
It has had the opposite effect,
And closed me up.
But I don't know why.

Pop,
If it wasn't for Bubby......
I don't know how I would get through this,
He has been wonderful,
And I love you both so much.
Pop,
You will always be in my heart forever,
And I will talk to you all the time.....
As I love you so very much.

3. THE DOLPHINS

The playful dolphins.... Jump high in the air.
With brightly smiling faces
Together with porpoises they have races.
They are nice to see,
As they relax me
Watching them swim swiftly through the water.

I feel so relaxed and melancholy,
They make me feel so jolly.
When I watch....
My troubles all evaporate,
Nothing could ever be so great.

The way they jump from the water,
And gracefully make a splash as they enter.
I'd... Like to come back as a dolphin.....
And glide swiftly through the water.

Watching the waves crash,
And ebb gently bac towards the sea,
Makes me feel as if I'm floating....
On a raft.... made from a tree.

The dolphins,
They splash and play,
As they swiftly come my way.
I put my hand out....
And gently pat their back.
They feel so smooth,
They just lay there very still,
As if they are asleep.

4. THE OLD STREET BUM

There's a cold breeze blowing.
The platform at the local station......
Is his home now.
His face is unshaven,
His hair is long and scruffy
And dripping with oil.

He is dressed in....
A torn green shirt.
And a pair of torn blue trousers.
With a dirty old trenchcoat,
That goes over the top.
He has got dirty old fingerless gloves.

He finds a vacant corner,
With a seat for his bed,
And a pizza box for his head.
There's an old newspaper,
Flying about.....
That he uses for his blanket.
He's got no where to go,
And nothing to do.
Just watching the trains as they pull in.
He's just an old street bum.

He sits and watches....
The people coming and going.
Nobody speaks to him
As nobody cares,
Every one just looks and stares.
The man.....
He doesn't say alot,
As people pass him by.
The small children look and stop,
Asking questions all the time.

Of a night......
There's a cold breeze blowing,
He's lucky it's not snowing.
When it gets really cold.....
There's always an alley down the road,
That he slowly walks down.
His old bones are aching,
As he stumbles along
Singing a drunkard little song.

5. MY TATT ODE

Saturday was the day I was looking forward too,
It was the day... to get my tattoo.
I remember when... My first tattoo was done,
I was nervous and butterflies in my stomach did appear.
The tattooist said that it would hurt.

I lay on the bed.... on my stomach,
The butterflies start churning
Faster and faster.
The tattoist was good,
As he told me what was happening all the time.
The tattoo took... an hour and a half,
With a break in the middle....

So he could rest his hands and
Me a smoke break.
The second tatt.... was much the same,
Didn't take as long as the first.
The second was on my back.
The two tattoo's are of....
A "casper the ghost" on the right side of my back,
A "rose" on the left side which is on track.

The lastest tattoo and the last i have got,
Is my most precious one yet.
I really like dolphins....
So..... on my stomach above my naval,
A dolphin with ,.... The initials below.
L.G.S
The initials of ..... my grandfather
Who,
I hold forever dear to my heart.

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